A collection of extracts from my journal over these past absent weeks.
Second thoughts are curses
Quirky perks disperse with stress,
An empty lesson or an empty purse?
They talk like I’m not here,
a testimony to the idea
that I might be just a little bit weird
and when I talk it’s to an empty room,
a looming truth so what’s the use
of singing to their tune?
The landscape’s curling line
echoes my learning state of mind.
The heartbeat of the land,
a sublime stroke by a genius hand.
Talking shit again.
It’s well inended, but it’s not making me any friends
so let’s put it to an end and write
something worth something
I got nothing.
Feels like I’m fracking in my own mind,
tunneling for diamonds like its a fucking mine
I look around and see nobody
because I am the time waster
I am the great procrastinator
I am the perpetrator of my perceived failure.
Erase the mistakes
with better choices and a new set of brakes.
Flaky rat race,
and you’ve got shit on your face.
I can’t replace a single piece of time that I’ve wasted.
A lot of us chase our tails
holding back to avoid a fail,
wailing wind gone out of our sails
Look at all those blank spaces!
Left behind by righteous faces
who’s good graces are crumbs;
who’s crooked thumbs
numbly fire tasers at the cultured ones.
A giant cheeky moon plays peekaboo
Shining bright along the hilline
Dark green contrast on a moody blue
I’m still alive with a chance to resist loudly,
Satire is dead
and those machines have still got to be fed.
Living in dread of the block heads.
We are the children
of an inbred fictional debt,
cold steel of invisible chains,
the culture of blame in the age of No Regrets
Mushroom fumes in stuffy rooms,
purple stain from acid rain.
Doomsday news courtesy of plumes,
pass off blame and ways to complain.
A divine horizon stole my breath
but it’s a guess how long the land has left.
Sucking life like a ring wraith
closing in on the spaces
of more vulnerable faces
trying to take more time but time doesn’t give,